Living as God sees it...

For three days now that I've been co-watchkeeping the machines of the engine room from 8 am to 4 pm... Making sure that the boat has enough fresh water, verifying that the generators aren't overheating, cleaning the heavy fuel and diesel oil purifiers, keeping the hydraulic oil running, getting the KaMeWa pumps running (the ones in charge of the main propellers) and so on... Honestly, I'm really going to enjoy this job!
I must admit, though, that I'm starting to realize once I've entered the full time working routine I'm going to have to be very careful how I use my time.
I would already like to spend more time with God, just listening to Him, studying his Word, but I'm too lazy and cannot make myself do this.
I thought I was ready to sacrifice all I had for God, (in a way material sacrifice is easy for me) but this is easier said then done (I need to give him my time, energy and personal pleasures!).
I want to sacrifice ALL to him but don't have the will to do it, I know that this would change my way of seeing God forever, but in the end I'm afraid of this change.


If you would be so kind to pray for me:


- That God would put aside my pride so that I can really sacrifice everything for the good reasons.
- That God would give me the strength to invest in his ministry for Him only, His glory and not my own.


God speaks to us when we take the time to listen, I've personally experienced it... Our life resembles that of a falling leaf; how much more is eternity worth our time, energy and strength. Why do I persist in being blind, why am I deaf... ?